A
beautiful 30 year woman came and told, Dr Vandana, I have unexplained pain
abdomen. My medical tests are normal. I also have pain during relationship. I
had natural abortions twice. I frequently dream that someone is being raped and
also that I am running.
Session……
It
is a big home and lots of people are there. I am 16 yr old girl. From my dress
it seems it is Rajasthan. It is afternoon. I am standing at the window of my
room on the first floor and looking outside at a house. It is afternoon. That
house is very small in comparison to mine. I feel I am looking for someone in
that house. It is late evening. I am downstairs taking food with my parents.
They are talking about my marriage. My father is telling that the boy is rich.
I said I do not want to marry. My father slapped me. Now my parents are
arguing. I went up stairs. I am crying in my room and looking outside at that
house. There is a boy sitting in veranda of that house. He is young like me. He
is looking towards window. I feel we like each other.
A
lot of preparation is happening in my home. Few people came here. I am watching
from another room. They are taking meals. It is the family; my father is
getting me married into. The boy seems to be very elder to me.
After
a month, my marriage is taking place. All in the family are happy except me. The
man is wearing Sherwani and carrying a sword. Phere ho rahe hain. I am looking
a beautiful bride. Ladka chup kar mujhe dekh raha hai. He has tears in his
eyes.
I
am now at my husband’s home. This is larger home than ours. I have a mother-in-law.
I am alone in a big room. I am afraid. I am standing at door and thinking of an
excuse to leave this place. My husband came in the room. He is very strongly
built man. I am more afraid now. I am having severe pain in abdomen. (visible
pain for a long time). I felt raped.
I
am having lot of pain in my abdomen. My mother-in-law told it will be all right.
I feel like dying. Time is passing. I am sick and having fever. My husband and
mother-in-law brought me to my parent’s home. I am feeling very happy. I went
to my room and stood at the window. The boy is looking at me. I am healthy
again and happy here. The boy tried to speak to me once. I went and talked to
him. My brother saw us talking.
After
few days, I was left me at my in laws home. I do not feel good. Me and mine
husband do not talk to each other but he has sex daily. But I do not like it, I
am very unhappy. My life is going like this only.
I
am pregnant. My husband is taking me to my parent’s home. I look very weak. I
am delivering but the child died during birth. I keep on crying. After few
months, my husband came to take me but I refused to go. I am feeling happy. I
also meet that boy. We used to play together when we were young. We are Zamidars
here and he is an ordinary person.
The
boy and me, we both are running after each other. We are very happy. I suddenly
fall. The boy came and held my hand. He also fell suddenly. Somebody hit us. I
see my brother near us. I am dying. I am 28 yrs old. I am going towards light.
It is so peaceful in the light. I feel like receiving healing energy for my
body.
Reorientation….
That
boy is my present life husband. We met when I was 15 and he was 16. We were
neighbors in university campus. There was lot of resistance to our marriage. We
got married in a temple when I was 23. We had to leave our parent’s home. I
started having pain abdomen one year after my marriage. I conceived twice but
had natural abortions. I feel that past life memory is stored in my abdomen and
reproductive system. I am very hopeful now that I will be free from this issue
very soon.
