A 25 year old girl came with complain of claustrophobia. She
feels she is struggling with this fear since childhood. She said dr.vandana , I
feel upset with it, so I want to see my past life.
Session….
I am a beautiful girl with golden hair. I am the only child. My
parents are rich. We own a big estate, many people work here.
I am 19 year now, riding a horse all alone. I reach a forest
area a little far from our estate. I stop my horse as I feel someone is
following me from behind. I look back and see a couple on horse who work in our
estate. I step down as I think my parents have sent them after me. They step
down and suddenly the man masked my face with a cloth. The woman tied my hands.
They are taking me but the speed is slow. So now they tie me on the back of the
horse and the man rides it. The woman took my horse. I shout leave me!leave me!
They reach an isolated place after sometime. There is pin drop silence around.
I am in a very small closed room. The woman untied my hands and removed the
mask. The woman is very fat and ugly. The room has an earthen floor. There is
no window buthas a small ventilator near the roof. The room is dark. The woman
tellsme that I will be released when my parents will give them lot of money and
jewels. They locked the room from outside and left.I do not hear any sound. There
is frightening silence. I am very afraid. It is such a small closed place that
I feel suffocated. The plate offood is slipped inside from the gap at the
bottom of the door. There is not much light so I cannot see what it is. It is
tasteless staple food and very difficult to eat. They come after a very long
time, open the door and enter the room. The man stands at the door. The woman
shouts at me, beats me and rubs sand on my face. It seems they are not able to
get money from my parents. Her behavior is getting horrible as time passes. I am
getting weak day by day. I have not seen sun,I have not felt air, I donot know
how many days, months and years have passed. I do not have any orientation of
time. I am skin thin but alive. It feels they came after a very long time. Woman
is very angry and scratches my face and lips with her hands. Suddenly I felt
too much anger and bit her hand. She holds me by my hair and smashes my head on
the wall. I am dead. My last thought was
that if only I could have breathed in fresh air. This was some European
country.
Reorientation…..
She said the impression of the life lived in a very small closed room is with me from very
early age. Any place which is closed, e.g, picture halls, lifts, even the small
washrooms suffocate me and make mepanic. I feel that reliving that traumatic
life helped me release those memories of the past because now I feel that an
unknown burden and fear from mind is lifted. Past is over, past is released, I am
free. A lot of blessings to you doctor.
