All turns out to be good in the end

A young woman came and said, Doctor Vandana, I feel I have huge potential. I want to unlock my potential and remove some block.

Session………

I am alone in a stone house having wooden furniture. I am wearing blue dress and taking porridge. Now I am walking through the village all the way to fields. There are a lot of houses around the estate. I reached an eating place. A group of six young boys, having soiled faces and hands, are sitting and laughing. I am smiling. Boys are asking for food. I am giving them porridge in wooden pots. Now I look out of the window at houses, dusty street, carriages etc. Boys are done with food. Now I am going out of this place. I am 16 yrs of age. I am going through village, crossing a big gate, passing by fields again watching a flowing stream nearby. I jump and cross olive tree. It’s evening. I am happy on the way back to my home. There is an old lady, she is cooking. I am eating apple from basket. I see olive tree from window of my room. I feel the old lady is my mother. Next morning few men riding on horseback, faces covered with black cloth, enter inside home. They are talking to the lady. They push me on the floor and drag me. My mother is trying to stop them. They make me sit on the horse back and take me away. Lot of dust is all around. I am stopping them, they are not listening. They cross all the fields and are going farther away.

After a long travel I can see a strange village. It has straight muddy houses and dry land. After crossing the village we enter a big palace made of red brick and stone. There are many tress and fountains here.  Two women take me for a bath in a pool. I feel clean. They make me wear body hugging cotton dress with golden work on it. I am very beautiful and fair. The floor is very clean and nice. They are taking me to a hall. A man is sitting in a big chair. They make me sit by his side. He is older and strong built. He is 45. I feel strange and confused. A man with ugly teeth came in front of us. He is laughing proudly. He is one of the men who abducted me.

The man sitting on the chair got up, held my hand and took me to a big room. He made me sit on the bed. He is now standing near the window. There is tree with big leaves and white & pink flowers. Someone came to meet him. He went along with him. Then he came back and making love to me in bed. It’s done and he is gone. I am just lying on the bed. I get up and saw the pool from the window. I left the room and went into the pool. Came back to the room, the floor is so cold. Life goes like this. I am very bored here. I had happy family. My all brothers are working at mill. My father is no more. My village was so good. He and his soldiers took everything from me.

One day I climbed up the tree and looked at whole city. This city has light brown coloured buildings; red flags on tree branches and sand all around. I am not happy and feel very alone. It has started raining. I climb down the tree and go out down the huge stairs. Two persons bring me back and two women are taking me back to the man. The man looks unhappy. He ordered them to take me to the room. This man wears strange things, a horse structure on head. I am in my room. I am 20.

Two women are dressing me in white clothes. Now I am standing by his side. Today is some celebration. A Lot of happy rich people, Elephants and horses are here.  He is very happy. I am having a big belly. I am pregnant. I feel he is happy and this celebration is because of it.

Now he visits me regularly and feels happy. He relishes his time with me. One day a lot of people, men & women, came in my room. It is delivery time. He is waiting outside and all other are watching me deliver a son. They called him Sumer. My child is growing up fast. He looks like his father. We both have so much to do together. We are almost like siblings. He is young but understands me well. Now I am talking to everybody here. One woman told me that king has many queens but no child. Someone told him to bring girl from afar so they brought me. Everyone started liking me. The other queens were sent far away after I delivered a son. That is why I get lot of king’s attention now.

King is not well and is getting weak. I take his place. I became a strong leader. My son is sitting by my right side. Now I am ruling. I am doing well, liking it more but sometimes I want to see my place.

I am in 40s. A person from another kingdom came with his daughter and proposed for my son. They came along with their big family. I found the girl very nice. My son gets married with lot of celebration and rituals.

I decided for him to be head of kingdom. I now sit on his right side. He is just like my brother. I am happy. With time my son had three children. They are very sweet. Now I play with them and climb the tree with them. One day I fell down and hurt my right ankle. I am on the bed. My ankle injury is not healing and getting worse. I am getting weaker. My son and grand children come to see me.

It is early morning.  I am alone in my room.  I feel I am leaving my body. My son is very sad. They buried me a place near king’s grave. There is some golden figure on top of my grave. It was a lonely life. Lesson I learnt that things change and all turn out to be good in the end. In light received blessings & Guidance that you will rise up to great heights in this life.      

Reorientation…….

Doctor! Similar incident occurred at the time of delivery this time also.  Due to some sudden complications in normal delivery so many male and female staff, doctors entered in the delivery room. In the present life also I had right ankle injury and have only one son. Thank you very much for assisting me travel this wonderful journey.

Curiosity about past lives

A 43 yrs beautiful woman came with a feeling that she should experience her past life.

Session……

I am 20, a very handsome Roman soldier living in a barrack along with other young and good looking soldiers. It seems today is a holiday for us and four of us are going to city. We are crossing a big park on our way to city. We are entering a very big building. It seems there is some community celebration happening. It is a good food and dance party. We all are very happy, talking and enjoying. I am dancing and talking with a beautiful girl now. Suddenly the building is falling and there is destruction all around. It is a earthquake. People are running out and away from the building. I got badly hurt and am not able to walk of my own. The girl is supporting me. She is asking me to come out. I feel I am the only one who is wounded badly. All other are running and seems to be fine. We reached near a park and I sat on a stone. I cannot walk. It is night now and I am all alone. I also want to go back to barrack. I am having lot of pain in my body. It is early morning now. I am quite disappointed. I feel I am dying due to the wounds. I died on that stone with pain and my body is lying on the stone. I am watching from above. All people are leaving the city. A very beautiful angel came in beautiful cart. She is not a earth creature. She is angel Haniel. I am in the cart with her. I am looking out of the window of cart. People are very much in trouble but they are not aware of our presence. I am moving up as a white flowing energy. There is musical sound all around. My body is left on the earth. I am in the light. Angel Haniel is advising me; love yourself. My Master advised me to work as a medium. I asked the Master why do I have to struggle a lot in present life? He answered in one of past lives you were a big tribal man who enjoyed hurting and chopping trees. I received the blessings from Master and angel for the present life.

Reorientation……

The experience of an Angel Haniel helping me to go to light will always remain with me. I am very intuitive in this life. My Master told me to work as a medium. I will consider it. Dr Vandana I understand the reason behind my unexplained body pains. I was so handsome and my body was so much injured that my last thought was of pain. I am confident that slowly the pains will leave my present body. Thank you very much for this wonderful experience.

Experimenting past life regression

Truth about reincarnation.

A man of 38 yrs. of age with curiosity of reincarnation came for Past life regression.

Session…..

I am a 25 yrs bald monk wearing saffron clothes. I am standing and a lot of people are sitting listening to Lord Gautam Budha’s teaching.

It is night and I am sitting on a cot in a hut. Next day I am going to bazaar for Bhiksha. I am walking on a kutcha path with my eyes lowered to ground. I walk and now reached at some other place. Here everyone is dressed like me. We all are very quiet and peaceful.

I am walking for almost last one year and going somewhere. Now I am sitting under a tree watching the rising sun. I again start walking holding a walking stick after few hours. I feel I am 30 and enter a village. I go to shops for Bhiksha. The shopkeeper at a shop gave me rice but I told him I can’t cook it. He gave me jaggery instead. I continue with my journey. It is day time and now I am sitting on the banks of a river eating jaggery. I am listening to the mesmerizing sound of flowing river. I like the sound and meditate. It is night now and I  sleep under a tree on the bank of the river. Next morning few villagers came and offered me food. I stayed there for some time.

I want to go to Sarnaath and continue with my journey. I died after few years. My body is cremated. People lit my pyre. I was at peace at the time of death. In light the message came improve your meditation.       

A past life

A person came for past life regression to understand present life.

Session…..

I am a man standing in a lawn of big home. It is 17^th century. I wear hat and keep a stick in hand. I am in my 30s. I have a very big farm. Many people work for me. I am single. I do not feel any body is suitable for me and so do not marry.

I am taking round of my farm. A young couple is hugging each other and smiling. I saw them. I went to them and started beating both of them with stick. The stick has a metal cap. They are crying. The servants came and started begging to stop beating. Someone pulled the girl away. I keep on beating the boy. It seems he died. The girl cursed me you left me alone so you will always live lonely life. She also fell and died. I felt bad.

Now I live silently and feel very low. I am sick. I could not sleep in night. I feel restlessness and lonely. My heath is deteriorating. I am on the bed. My servants took over my land. People cheat me of my money. My body is just a skeleton now. I died alone. The foul smell of my decomposed body spread and the servants buried me in the courtyard of my home. Lesson learnt: one should not be cruel. In light the message came forgive yourself.     

Soul mate: Two little words, one big concept. A belief that someone, somewhere, is holding the key to your heart.

A doctor came for past life regression because this will lead to more awareness about self.

Session…..

I am in a dance party with my husband. We are happy couple. It seems I am pregnant. Now we are coming back home. I am not feeling well. After a month I gave birth to baby boy. We love the kid very much. Our family life is very happy.

Our son had accident and lost his legs. He is almost 9 years old. He is on wheel chair. We are sad.

My husband made a handicap club. We all three are now actively working for handicaps. Now my son is in 20s. He learnt Braille and started teaching blind members of the club. We are doing many type of activities. My husband is smart, practical and loves us a lot. We are getting social recognition. My son is also a respected young man but he is not getting any girl to marry. No girl wants to marry a handicap. We are worried. We also have a pet dog. Our life is busy. We made a pact that we will be together in all lives and we will always do social service.

I am old. My husband is no more. I am not feeling well. My son is sitting with me. In night I died peacefully. My last thought was my son is left alone. Lesson learnt : one should have two kids. My body is buried. A lot of club members are present. I can see the name Sicily while moving towards the light. In light received certain guidance.

Reorientation….

The son is life partner and husband is very close friend. The subject told, Dr Vandana, all three of us bond very well together since 1^st year of medical college.

Karmic pattern linked to past life

Karmic pattern linked to past life.

A young married woman came with the question - Why there is no love in my married life? Why my husband is like this? Why do I have height phobia?

Session…  1^st life.

There is a water fall off the hill. I am a young girl sitting with my feet in water. It is morning. It seems I live alone in a hut in a jungle. I bring wood to cook food. I have a dog. Someone took my parents away when I was 8.

Now I am almost 20 and decided to leave forest. I see a white house and reach there. There is a big fat man of 40 yrs in the house. He forced himself on me and kept me in his home (he is my present life husband). I do house work and do not speak. One day he came and started shouting at me. I am crying. He left the house. Same day I also left the house and went up to corner of the hill. I jumped and died. This is very old time in India. No one searched for me. Lesson learnt: I should have fought.

2^nd life

As a therapist I guided her to second past life to have more and clear understanding.

I am a boy with a girl. We are 25 yrs old. We love each other. It is morning 11 am time.  It seems I hit her on shoulder. She started crying. I leave after that. I come back home and talk to her nicely. We are husband wife.

She is pregnant and cooking food. She is not finding something. I am again shouting at her and she started crying. I am not good to her. A baby girl is born.

I am a carpenter and keep on fighting with her on small things. She feels suffocated. She always remains sad. She is not well but I do not care. She died at the age of 40 and I buried her. It is some recent time in 1920s. Now I keep on thinking why I used to shout at her. My daughter is grown up. I keep on smoking, coughing. I am sick. It seems now I am in my 50s. My daughter had love marriage. Her husband is not good. He hits my daughter. Once he tried to press my neck but I pushed him back. He fell and hit the corner of a table. He started bleeding. I took him to hospital but he died. My daughter does not talk to me. I am always sad. It was a lonely life. I died in sleep at the age of 72.  

Lesson learnt: one should not get angry. My last thought was had my wife been with me. It seems my daughter’s husband is my present life husband.

I guided her to light the masters guidance came “Be happy”.

Deja-Vu and past life link

Deja-vu and past life link

A young very beautiful Sikh girl came with query why do I have a lot of liking for Muslim religion? The glimpses of being a Muslim girl come to my dream since my childhood.

Session…

I am inside a very big bungalow. It is Azan time. A lot of people are here. Now I am going with my Ami for shopping to gold Jewellery market. It is an old time. It seems 1857. We are shopping for my Nikah.

After few days news came that my fiancé has expired. Later on my Dada Abu decided to get me married to a very rich Hakim 10 yrs older than me. My name is Habiba. I am wearing lot of gold in my Nikah

Now I am in my new home. People here are educated. They speak Farsi. I am not educated. Now I have three daughters and one son. I am 37 yrs now. I educate myself and now write down medicines with my husband. At the age of 44 year my husband had heart attack and is no more. I am a religious person now. My son left for other country after some time. My daughter got married in Iran. I also went to that country and learnt about gems and quartz and started healing people. I came back to my own country. I am happy with my life but feel lonely. At the age of 70  I left body reading a book. I was very peaceful. I learnt a lot from life. I received love. My last thought was I should have loved my husband more. The lesson learnt:  Appreciate what you have. My children came and buried me. Guided to light received blessings in light.

“Un-explained feeling--I do not want to live & Past life link”.

A twenty seven year woman with history of suicidal attempts, came for past life regression to know - Why don’t I want to live?

Session……..

I am a 12 years boy living in a beautiful home. My parents are fighting. It is a routine with them. I have school vacation and my parents are fighting over - who will take me to my grandparent’s home. Next day, they make me board the train alone and tell me grandparents will receive me. They are still fighting and the train departs. They even do not say good bye to me before departure of train. I am angry. The train is running at a high speed. Suddenly it starts making lot of noise. The train has derailed. I am bleeding. Many of us are shifted to hospital. Others have attendants with them but I am all alone in hospital. Last thought before I die, I am so lonely, even if I die - so what?

I am buried in nearby cemetery. I am playing and enjoying. I roam around. I am roaming and playing with butterflies & birds. They are my friends. [guided to move to light, initially there was lot of resistance – why should I go? asked to forgive parents- why should I forgive? lot of counseling done and then with consent and help of loving light, moved to light]

In light, master guidance came and advised “taking your own life is not acceptable in universal law”. He could assess planning stage and found that his future is happy and bright.

Subject let me know, after one year of PLR, that she did not have even a single thought of suicide since her PLR session. She is in love planning to marry soon and is a Happy person.    

I want to release my past life blocks that are causing me tendency of recurrent lower abdominal pain and right ovarian cyst said a 35 year old woman who came for past life regression session.

Session….

1^stlife

The sky is overcast with dark clouds and it is likely to rain heavily. I am a woman, walking very fast to reach a house. It is an English house in some European country. My husband is at home holding a 2 year old baby boy. There is argument between us. I am three months pregnant. I am not happy.

It is morning and my husband is taking me somewhere. He is holding baby. I am very upset. I am crying. Now we are with some medical person. I am being taken to another room. I am lying on a table in delivery position for abortion. It is very painful. Pregnancy is terminated. My husband brought me home. I am crying. My unborn child is gone before coming to life. All is at stand still at home. My husband is not able to understand what to do. I die within few months due to deep sadness. My husband is holding the baby. My body is in a coffin. There is so much pain in my lower abdomen (crying). My last thought is of pain in my lower abdomen (visibly hands were pressing lower abdomen constantly). My husband places flowers on my coffin and speaks “Zule ! I am sorry”. I am buried.

(Healing done)

2^nd life

I am working in a office holding a good position. This is recent times. I am returning back in a car after office hours. It is week end. I am going to meet my parents living far away. It is raining and dark. Road is not good. My car suddenly stopped. I step out on to the road holding an umbrella and waiting for help on the road side. I wave my hand to a big vehicle approaching me. The vehicle is very near but does not stop. It hits me and I fall in front of the vehicle. My lower abdomen, pelvis and thighs are crushed under the vehicle. The pointed tip of umbrella pierces my right side of abdomen and ovary. I am dead. My pelvis and reproductive organs are filled with small stones (visibly held abdomen tightly, folded knees and started to remove something for 5 minutes, her being in traumatic pain was visible, she had tears in eyes and lot of cell memory released during this time and finally her body relaxed).

Guided to master light she felt that the master light placed a white energy ball on her lower abdomen and her whole body became white light. She felt two divine hands handed over a small baby in her hands. There was smile on her face. Past was released and healed.  Thank you divine.

Un-controlled sexual urge and past life link

Un-controlled sexual urge and Past life link

Session….

It is a small house in a village in the hills of Himachal. I am six year old boy playing with other children. My father is sick and bed ridden. My grandparents are old. A group of Jogis came and they took me away along with them promising to treat my father’s sickness. My mother is crying. My grandparents are helpless.

I am crying. They take me very far away on to a hill top. They cut my hair, beat me and make me clean the whole area. They sexually abuse me daily. I am 13 year old and they hit my penis with sticks. They crush my penis.

I am 17. I escape and am running very fast. I am very angry with these people because of the way they hurt me. I roam here and there. Now I am 23 and living in a Kutia outside a village. I have grown a beard and do Tapsya. There is a lady who cleans the area, gives me food and lives with me. I usually avoid getting close to her. I am aware that I am not capable to fulfill her desire, so I concentrate on my Tapsya. Now I am 41. She left with someone. Villagers give me food. I collect herbs/ medicinal plants to prepare medicines for the villagers. People are happy with me and respect me. I am also happy. Slowly people from surrounding villages also start visiting me for medicine. I teach them how to prepare medicine from herbs and plants. I am 66, I feel my end is near so I decide to leave and go back to jungle. Villagers do not allow me to leave but I insist, so they agree.

Now, I live in a small Kutia built near a tree. I am writing a book on Ayurveda medicine.

It seems probably two people stab me in the abdomen and take away my book. I pull the dagger out and try to apply medicine. I am bleeding profusely and dying a slow death. I am lying and thinking about my childhood, my young age and that I could not have sex. Villagers came and found me dead. They cremated me and built a memorial in my name. It was 1885. Lesson learnt “forgive and help everyone.”

Reorientation…

He said that it is so surprising that continued sexual abuse in childhood and the incidence of not being able to fulfill sexual urge in adulthood in my past life of 1885, still have so strong imprints in my subconscious mind in the present life. In this life I love my medical profession. Now I feel very relieved & light. Thank you doctor, you helped me to find the reason behind my most difficult issue in present life. 

PLR session

PLR Session -An experience

I am a married 24-25 years old woman in a field in the state of Rajasthan in India. I have dark skin with very sharp features. I am full of life and a happy woman.  I am wearing Rajasthani dress. Few, 4-5 women are returning back from daily work.  There is a village having many mud houses and few concrete houses. I live with my family in one of the concrete white building with a tomb like roof. I am holding a 4/5 months old baby boy in my hand and waiting for my husband who is in the army.

I am more educated than most of people around me but I do nothing and am at home.  We are sitting on floor by the side of square silver tables of low height and food is served in big thalis. We (females) are covering our head to the extent of covering half face too.

I seem to be from a different culture that is not as traditional as all these customs are not too appealing and felt foreign. I am not able to sleep and staring at the stars but I have a small boy to care of. My husband has come. All my excitement of wait for his return is over and I feel sad. He is always serious and does not talk much. We have no communication and never shared any relationship of belonging to each other. I am here just because I am married to him. I am here to be a wife and a mother only. I lost all excitement. I felt so numb as if I no more existed.

I have another son and they both are growing up.  I love a man who is younger to me but I never let him know as I am elder and married with two kids. My heart lighted up for a short while and I felt alive, but it was not correct.  I spoke to my husband about it as our boys had grown up enough but he never uttered a word. I left the house carrying some clothes in a wooden suitcase. When I left he never said a word as if it did not matter to him.

I am in a cream/off white colour saree with black border teaching some higher class.  I meet a man who is a junior colleague and likes me but I never allow any closeness or any sort of feeling enter my heart. He respects me so much that he too prefers just to be a colleague than losing my company.

It is the time of death. I get up to go to the washroom to wash my face. As I get up I fall down. My soul moves out of my body like a layer and is watching the body. The lady in neighbourhood who is my evening tea companion discovers my body. I am cremated in the Indian way and my body is burnt.

Guided to the white light, I met the master soul who barely touched my shoulder and patted me with blessings.

Unexplained lower abdominal pain and past life link

Unexplained abdominal pain and past life link.”

Past life Regression of a 34 year old woman with un-explained severe lower abdominal pain and feeling of self-pity.

Session…..

I am a 5 years old girl playing with my brother. We are Christians. My father makes fruit jam. Now I am young woman going to attend marriage at a relative’s place. It is some European country. I am wearing beautiful gown. My father finds a suitable boy there and fixes my marriage.

I am getting married in a church and very happy. My husband is in defense forces. We have a good home. He plays piano. Now I have a small baby. Life is good. My husband leaves for war and tells me to take care of the baby. As time passes, he visits 2-3 times to meet us and then he does not return ever. I receive a letter intimating that he is missing. Later I am informed he has died.

The house owner starts visiting us frequently. I want to get his help in some paper work. I get friendly with him. After some time, he transfers the ownership of the house in my name. I am pregnant.

It is a dark room with beds and windows. There are 8 to 9 ladies inside the room. I am wearing a gown and going to another room behind the curtain. There is a male doctor. I came here to abort. A lot of blood and even small baby parts are coming out. I am in severe pain (she screams with pain for some time). I reach back home and take rest. I have a female domestic help with me.

My daughter is now grown up. She has a man in her life. She is very happy. She is getting married. After marriage, she stays nearby only. I always have abdominal pain. It happened due to the delay in my decision to go for abortion. I did not recover fully after abortion. My health is deteriorating. I die due to this abdominal pain. I am about 50 years. I am watching my body. There is dark color rope below my waist attached to my lower abdomen. (Healing done). My body is buried. Stone “Anny - 1827 to 1876.” I am not able to move towards light. My guardian light came to take me to the light. In light Soul consciousness is healed.

lack of trust and past life link

Lack of Trust  issue, Headache and  Past life Link…

Session

I am wearing very shabby clothes. I am some place having wooden houses among greens. I realize it is a very old time sometime in Ireland of 1700s. I have a humble wooden hut, small farmland and two horses. It is the time of civil war and disturbances. There is lack of friendliness among each other. Everyone is scared of being open to communication, many houses are being raided. People are being removed from their homes and their farmlands confiscated. It is troubling times. I can see flashes of houses being on fire, killing & cruelty. I am busy discussing the day to day life with other men. We always remain alarmed and armed in order to protect our families. Everyone decided that I would be the spokesperson of the area. We tried that could reach a compromise and settle the issue without any bloodshed.

I am at a cliff at the end of green field and by the sea shore waiting for a man from the other neighboring village to talk and negotiate so that we could have peace amongst our two villages and unite. I am standing at the edge of the cliff looking at the sea and wondering how beautiful it would be to go back to old times when everyone lived in peace.  

I am pushed off the cliff into the cold sea waters near the sunset. The water is so cold that the shock of cold water made my heart stop beating and I drown. It is the shock of being pushed off the cliff combined the freezing cold water that killed me. The eyes of the person who had pushed me off the cliff, seems to be very familiar to me. It seems I know who he is.

I am going through too much pain and agony that I find it difficult to move above as I have no strength and feeling heavy. I have very severe pain at the back of my head. My head had hit an edge of a stone projecting of the cliff while fall and got head injury that gave such a severe headache. Guided to light I reach the white light with difficulty. I am with my soul mates and the master light. Blessings from the master light helped me rest and get relief from my pain .

Lesson learnt : “never to trust anyone blindly”.

Re-Orientation…

Dr.Raghuvanshi, Now that I think of the trust issue I have had in my relationships I see it has always been very deep , there are many more people who go through bad relations or have problems with friends but no one had become so extremely cautious as i was. I had recognized the flaw in me and i was doing my best to causing some part of my loneliness. I am glad that i regressed to this life as past life therapy helps you, re live and re experience all the pain and trauma and then it releases the issue for good, once you identify an issue in a past life session you release that pain and this therapy brings an understanding that this was a matter of the past and it is not going to happen again as a result we stop repeating our fear and we stop sending the universe the wrong signals. Thank you Doctor !!!

Life support "An inseparable Friend" and past life link

A past life regression……..Husband, Wife and her life support “An inseparable Friend”.

Session….

There is a clean water fall flowing into a shallow river. There are stones at the river bed clearly visible through the water.  It is a cloudy day. I am a small girl in a big house. Someone threw the wall clock down in anger and broke it. I hide myself behind a pole. We have a joint family. There is a big dining table along with many chairs. He is saying sorry for breaking the clock. I am on bed and he is feeding me. It is palace like room with a beautiful bed. We are playing some game he is my father.

I fell down in to the water from a high rise building. I am 7-8 yrs old. I swam out of the water. My papa, wearing water cap, says very good. I do not have mother. I have golden hair. I am in a saloon getting my hair curled. I am very beautiful. I kept my purse in an old times vehicle after coming out of Saloon. Children are playing. I am also sliding on the slide along with them. I am 15-16 yrs and happy. I am wearing light blue colored frock.

I am going in a chariot to a party and saying good bye to someone. I am grown up now. I am wearing gown and he (friend at present) is wearing hat.  I am dancing with him in a ball dance. He is looking smart. He is my husband. He said go home I shall soon come. He is telling me good bye. I go home. I am vomiting.

There is maid and a doctor. My father (present life father) has called the doctor. Doctor told I am pregnant. He came back. He is very happy.  A son is born. We all are happy.

My son who is 8-9 yrs old broke his leg 8-9 yrs. He is our only son. We love him. Our son (husband at present) is very intelligent. Our married life is very good (smile).

No girl wants to marry my son. We are worried. My husband sets up a handicap club. My son has opened a braille school. He teaches everyone how to read. All three of us decide we shall always live together. We work for people. It is Britain of the times when people visited India. My husband is very smart. He loves a lot. We get social recognition. People respect my son.

I am 75 and on my bed. My son is here. I am sick running fever. My son is applying cold sponge on me. It is night.  I am sleeping. I did not wake up in morning. There is a nurse and my son sitting on the couch in the room. I am dead. I am buried.

Last thought: My son is left all alone. I want to go to husband. Life was good with husband. Lesson learnt should have two kids. (sisky)

Guided to light, guidance came that all 3 of us shall live together in every life and work for people. We shall get Social recognition. Do not focus on earning money. Work for everyone. Money shall follow. My friend (my life support) is younger and should be taken care of by me. He should listen to me (longtime deep silence)

why this feeling?

Why this feeling.

We are three close friends. I am more close to one but get married to other one. It was love marriage. I always have this feeling that this friend of mine will be left alone and am very much concerned. Why ???  I always take him along for outings.

Session……  

There is a railway track. I am hugging a boy aged 18-19 yrs. It is raining. We are under a thatched roof and he is singing. I am happy (smiling).  It is getting dark now. I go home. My father, a woodcutter, asks me where did I go? I tell him I went with the boy (friend at present) and want to marry him.

I am getting married to someone else. That boy is also attending my wedding. He tells me I am looking beautiful. I am wearing a red saree. The groom (husband at present also) is also not willing to marry me. He is not happy. I am also not happy. The boy whom I wanted to marry did not tell me he is sick and about to die.

I go to his small blue colored home. His parents and sister are there. They are trying to make me laugh. It is night. He tells me that he does not know what marriage means and asked me to explain. I did not know there are boys like him. We became friends and are happy.

I told him I want to marry that boy. He asked me do you want to meet him? He took me along. The boy (friend at present) is in hospital.  It is state of Bihar. He told my husband that now only he has to take care of me. He got cured and did not die. We used to meet him. We got him married. It is old times boys wear dhoti.  

Our children are playing. We live in the same town near to each other. My father also lives here. Husband runs a typing shop. I stitch clothes. Our children have got married. A chameleon came near my feet. I do not like it. My husband gave me a stick and asked me to shoo it away. We were talking. He is telling we have to go somewhere and do something. My husband left for some religious function and did not take me along. His (friend at present) wife has expired. Cremation is taking place. He is sad. He lit the pyre and is at peace. Last thought: he is left alone.

I am all alone. My father and husband are not there. Only he (present life friend) is there. We run a school. He looks after the school. I am 70. I am on bed. I get tired. Now he (friend at present) and me live together in the same house. Lesson learnt: even if your love is sick you should marry him.

Sadness and past life link

A 33 year old woman came to understand reason of her sadness for unknown reasons.

Session….

I am meditating sitting on a high stone rock. I am looking at the Sun and saying Namaste to Sun. I collect my stuff and walk down the rock. I am wearing a white Dhoti, a white thread and Rudraksh Mala. I feel so much energized. My head is completely shaven except for a black Choti at the back. My body and brain both are refreshed. I have beautiful black eyes and fair skin tone. As I am walking towards my house I see villagers paying me respect saying “Namaskar”. I am enjoying my status and everything around me.

I see a girl running. A couple of people are trying to catch her. I run towards her without giving a second thought and she comes towards me. As I reach her, I signaled her to come behind me and covered her. She touched my back while hiding behind me. I felt instant attraction towards her. People following her are in front of me but they leave as they respect me. I bring the girl home. We do not talk on the way.

My mother is at home and she gives her food. She looks at me constantly.  I am attracted to her. After few days of living at our home one day she came upstairs in my room. She said she wants to marry me. I was shocked but confused as I was a saint. But I was attracted towards her also. She feels safe with me. She is bold and very straight forward. She is very clear in her mind but I am confused about marriage. I leave the home in confusion. I came back in the evening and found her in my room waiting for me. I hugged her passionately and said yes.

We are getting married. Marriage is over. Suddenly few villagers carrying lathis in their hands came to our house. I realized I have lost their respect because of this marriage. They are very angry with me. I do not know anything about her and the situation she was in. I married her due to attraction and the situation we were in. We did not judge each other. It was only love but it was not enough for the society. The villagers almost beat me to death but I do not feel the pain. They took her away to the river. Somehow I ran behind them but they drown her in front me. I could not do anything. She died in the river. I also thought of drowning myself as I did not want to live any more but did not do it. I spent days and nights on the river bank, just sitting helpless and sad. And then I came back to my home.

I am little older, two young boys are running around the house and smile at me. I often see them in my home and around. I feel they are growing with me. I spent all my life without purpose and in sadness. Just thinking that I could not live my life my way I lost all my mental and physical beauty. I lived neither like a saint nor a family man. I am sad, have no interest and liveliness. I felt failure inside. I died in sadness.   

Guided to light, Lord Shiva blessed her with guidance and energy. She felt very light. She said.. Thank you Doctor Vandana for this wonderful experience. I feel my soul is healed.